I slacked…again

I haven’t blogged in a few days ( I know, I know ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ). I feel like I’ve been all over the place mentally lately. It’s 3:51, I should be asleep but clearly my mind had other plans.   I figured I might as well get these thoughts off…

1. Jay-Z album dropped and I like it ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿพ. I didn’t really have expectations for it which was good because I hate to expect something and then be let down lol. He dropped a lot of gems on there and I hope ppl take note. The one thing that’s been annoying since his album release is that ppl  are trying to normalize infidelity ๐Ÿ™„. “Hov cheated and Beyoncรฉ didn’t leave” (once again…๐Ÿ™„). The responses kill me too “y’all don’t have Hov money”. Stop making it seem like cheating is okay and everyone should do it…it’s not. Stop making it seem like it’s more acceptable to cheat if you have a certain amount of money. It isn’t. Ppl cheat for different reason but stop thinking that someone has to stay because you cheated ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ. 

2. I wish that there could be some kind of movement where more ppl focused on building up their communities. Why can’t that be a sign that we “made it” ?  

3. Communication is really key but for some reason it’s often overlooked or the hardest thing for some of us to do. 

4. The internet/media will have you gassed. “Why spend your day working on someone else’s dream when you can work on yours”. Have a bad day at work and seeing shit like that will have you drafting your resignation letter ๐Ÿ˜‚. Don’t quit your main source of income to start or build your dream. Simply put…you’re probably going to need money to fund your dream/project. I’m still torn between peace of mind and income. What do y’all feel about quitting a job before you find a new one? We all know the obvious reasons why you shouldn’t, but is there an exception to those? 

5. Money doesn’t buy happiness but it buys me things/experiences that can lead to happiness ๐Ÿ˜‚ #morehunnits

6. Sometimes we outgrow things, situations and people. We fight it. It’s not easy to move on from those things that once made you happy. 

7. I know when I start to care less about things (not related to #6)…my effort decreases. 

8. Vacation can’t come fast enough…25 more days ๐Ÿ˜ฉ. 

9. This blog post is a representation of my overcrowded mind on most days lol. 

10. I should be sleeping because I have something important to do in a few hours…but here I am. 

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You’re doing great but…

The topic is a fruit I dislike and why.  I don’t want to write about this lol. I dislike watermelon because it’s ๐Ÿšฎ. That’s all. 

Anyway…today was a hectic day and it was a miracle I made it through because at times it was questionable. Today I told myself after stressing out of course,(hindsight is 20/20). “Do what you can and that will have to be it”. Some things aren’t worth stressing over. Some (most) things aren’t worth jeopardizing your well-being over. 

Today I saw a tweet that said someone’s coworker passed away and less than 48 hours passed and they were clearing their desk off. Just a crazy reminder that sometimes we bend over backwards (pause) for people who wouldn’t do the same for us or who don’t have our best interest at heart. 

I can go on and on about this. Sometimes you can be so on point and someone will still find a way to show you where you lack. Shit is crazy. Anyway, today I reminded myself about how important my well being and peace of mind is. Me first…them later. Change is coming. 

Ageism

I feel strongly about judging someone based on their age. I think usually it’s looked at as something that effects elderly people. I think we also need to focus on how ageism effects young adults. For instance, jobs, whether they admit it or not might not hire someone based on how young a person is compared to the other employees. I could be 23 (I’m not) and be more competent at my job than the next person who is 35 and just changed their career. 

I also feel like people in positions of power think that they can take advantage of a younger worker because they feel like you may not be as knowledgeable on your rights and your position.  I feel like a lot of jobs think they can get the younger employee to do the most because we are eager to prove ourselves. 

How do we combat that? Be competent at what you do, no one can take that from you. Let your work speak for itself. Research and find out information on policies and work related things that you are not knowledgeable about. 

Day 8

This was supposed to be posted last night. I fell asleep. I’m talking drool and all. I might try writing these during my commute like I am now. I’m grateful for another day of life, a place to call home, and family & friends who I love and who love me. I’m also grateful for my job that pays these bills but better is coming. That’s my mindset today. 

A book you love & one you didn’t: fun fact about me is I love to read. It’s hard to choose just one. I would choose any one of the Harry Potter books depending on the day. Outside of Harry Potter, I enjoyed To Kill a Mocking Bird, A raisin in the sun, fences (some classics). I really can’t think of a book I didn’t like at the top of my head. ๐Ÿค”

Snap backs & tatoos

Day 7: tattoos you have and the meaning. 

I have a measly one tattoo. It’s the symbol for the Taurus zodiac.  I hope to get another tattoo in the upcoming months. I have to just go out and do it and not think too hard. ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿพ

Fascinating ๐Ÿค”

Day 6: Someone who fascinates you and why?

I’m fascinated by a person or people who are able to live their lives to the fullest without caring about what other people might think or say about it. I’m still working on this. Not saying that I don’t do what I want to do in my life. For me it’s more of a how is this gonna make person X feel. I realize sometimes that I’m too concerned about how the next person is gonna feel and they aren’t worried about me in the situation. That being said, I have to put me first sometimes. Putting me first doesn’t mean fuck everybody else. For me it means I’m doing XYZ and if you’re on board then let’s go, if not then I’ll see you later ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿพ. No hard feelings. 

If it don’t apply…let it fly

So it’s day 5 of my 30 day writing challenge. The prompt for today is to write about some place I want to live but have never visited. There no where that I want to live that I haven’t already visited ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿพ. 

Some places like Georgia appeal to me but then the whole “it’s hot as f$&!” makes me second guess that. I do know I definitely want to leave NY…sooner rather than later. One state high on my list is Maryland (comment or send me a message/tips on what it’s like to live there). 

Don’t get me wrong I’m a New Yorker but I’m also a tired New Yorker. Cost of living, trash mass transit, traffic etc. There are so many different reasons to just live somewhere else. We’ll see how everything plays out. Until then I’m just trying to put myself in good positions until I’m where I want to be. Feel me?